Today I made a big mistake. I created a video in just a few minutes and uploaded it. I followed all the moves I'd never thought I'd make, yet had done so many times recently. I lost sight of the reason I started on youtube. I joined youtube for the fun and thrill of uploading a video, the anticipation of comments, the unpredictability of a video being big or just getting a few views.
Somewhere along the line I failed to keep youtube fun. I started to grasp for money, I've done too many videos with highly deceptive thumbnails, I'm not going to cover it up. I started to grasp for fame, even if I didn't like someone's content, I pretended I did just to not burn bridges and hope they'd promote me along the way. I loved the numbers, LOOK I GAINED X SUBSCRIBERS TODAY! Or YES I HIT 30,000 even tho my videos average 5,000 views recently. This is sad.
So with this comes the end of alwaystextback, but I'm not leaving, or like sxephil - saying I'm leaving. I'm simply starting over. Losing all the numbers I thought I needed. This has been an interesting decision, and the search for a new username will be interesting, but I'm up for the challenge all this holds. It's hard to build your brand for 2 years and then change it completely. I'm sure some people will follow me to the new channel, while most will drop off, but I'm game.
Note, series I love and videos I love will be reuploaded and continue on (Woke Up in A Car, Swingers Confessional), but I also will no longer be holding myself to a upload schedule. One big mistake I have made was expecting myself to release two videos a week no matter what. This resulted in poor quality, stupid, and just pathetic videos when I was unable to produce a better content set.
Good things are coming. Thank you for sticking around.